I'm grateful for the time off and all; it's just that I wish there was going to be more of it.
We've had some bad news from a family member---and are just waiting to see how bad.
There are a lot of things I like about getting older, but one that you really can't anticipate properly when you're young is the part where you begin to realize that the days of people you love really are numbered. Courageous people appreciate their loved ones more because of this; emotional cowards like me find themselves shrinking away from thinking too much about them, maybe trying to find some distance.
Definitely something for me to work on. It's just hard but it's also an inextricable part of life from which----as I've mentioned before---we here in the west are really disgracefully insulated. My friend D, having lost two loved ones in one go, has a much better attitude about these things than I do. She really does seem to have integrated these realizations into her way of dealing with people. My own instinct, after losing my previous husband, has been to steer clear of the thought of further losses. At my age, not possible.
Comments